Yesterday I felt very guilty, and a bit disappointed in myself. I still feel the same way today, but to a lesser extent.
During the week I normally eat lunch at my desk. I have been very good about eating according to my diet. Over the last 4 months I went out to lunch on September 28th (Olive Garden, for my birthday lunch), and then on December 3rd (Olive Garden again, taking a prospective employee out to lunch as part of the interview process). And that's it. Anyway, yesterday I went out to lunch again. I wasn't really that bad, but I had my sub on white bread. This will sound strange but I was "afraid" of the wheat bread that I normally eat. I recall the last time I was at the sub place when I got my sub I was unpleasently surprised by tthe fact they had changed their bread. At it was some sort of multi-grain with all kinds of seeds and nuts. So I got the white, but figured that was ok since I have had next to know white bread since the beginning of November. I "cheated", but only felt a slight twinge of guilt for going out and not eating my usual lunch that I make myself.
Then last night I was really bad. We planned to go to Friday's for dinner. We usually go out with some friends on Friday or Saturday night, and I've been able to find something at a few particular restaurants that actually sort of fit with my diet. At Fridays that particular meal is the Key West Shrimp. I think it is pretty much the only low carb thing on the menu. When we got there though, they had a special deal going. 3 courses for $12.99. And my shrimp dish was listed as one of the entrees available under the deal. At the bottom of the special menu insert there was a beautiful picture of a chocolate peanut butter pie with a mini reeses on top. Ugh. Then I looked at the list of available appetizers and knew I was screwed. Mozzarella sticks. I absolutely love mozzarella sticks. Now there was some major inner turmoil going on. Do I just get that entree dish with a nice salad with low-fat balsamic dressing and be unhappy about what I am missing out on, or do I go ahead and get what I want but then feel terribly guilty about it? Well, as you can tell from the title of the post I went ahead and ordered exactly what I wanted, and then felt terribly guilty about it.
I know it isn't really a bit deal, but I have to keep telling mysefl that in order to really convince myself. I know I need to allow myself to occassionally have something bad if I enjoy it, I just can't have it too often. I know I will get right back on track today.
it looks awesome, doesn't it?
